A lot of people around the world feel unloved. This feeling of being unappreciated not cherished, and not valued is something that nobody wants, yet many of us feel it at times. I know this because I was there once. A place where everything is falling apart and you’re certain God loves everyone but you. I was bitter and knowing everything was going wrong with my life broke me; I was washing a pile of clothes, had 6 toilets to clean, haven’t had breakfast at 2pm and had a pair of jean and a T-shirt on for three days. You see, it is difficult to trust that God loves you in such a situation and I am not defending my hurt. I looked around and I see commercial sex workers and drug dealers “living the life”. I felt God decides to bless the people He wants to bless and those He wants to ignore.
I felt unloved. In my pain, I cried to the Lord and right there in a brothel with “yahoo boys” commercial sex workers and drug dealers, the Lord spoke to me through Romans 8:32 “He who did not spare His own Son but gave Him up for us all, how will He not also, along with Him, freely give us all things?” All things? I don’t know a lot of things but one thing I know is that this life is definitely not what I asked for. I didn’t ask for my father to die, I didn’t ask to be homeless and living in a brothel where I’m maltreated for no reason. If God truly freely gives us ALL things, then why am I still here? If He truly loves me, then why are my prayers unanswered? My journey to discovering God’s love started a long time ago, but at this time in my life as a teenage girl, I completely didn’t see this God as a loving God. I thought to myself “if He loves me as the Bible states, my life should be better than this”.
That night, I prayed to God to prove that He still loves and is with me. I can’t remember how I got out of this mood but I do know one thing; when I sit back to look at my life after 15 years, I am sure God loves me. You see, God answered my prayers right there that night in the street of Obalende but that wasn’t the response I was expecting. In the years I lived at the brothel, we lost six girls to ritual killers, two girls to abortion and one I never knew what happened to her. We lost one guy in a club fight and one committed suicide.
I look back now and the Lord says to me, “Do you think I love you?” of course I know He does, I just didn’t see it. I didn’t know how He shielded and saved me from being raped five times. He kept my one pair of jean from getting old and I never even noticed. God loves us simply because He has chosen to do so. He loves us even when we don’t feel loved. He loves you when no one else loves us. I can now say boldly, “others may abandon you, divorce you, and ignore you, but God will love you. Always. No matter what!”
I didn’t see this early in life and I wish I did. I would have grumbled less and remained grateful for everything. If you ever felt unloved and unwanted, be encouraged by this truth: Jesus loves you and wants you to be His. He’s the Lover of the unloved and the unlovable. He loves you so much He came to die for you. My charge to you reading this today is; God cares deeply about you so when you pray and not get an answer, know that He knows best. He might choose to answer you differently than what you prayed for because He sees the bigger picture of your life. Have faith and trust in Him and believe He hears your prayers, sees your needs and He is faithful to answer according to His will, which is always the best. Whenever you feel unloved remember this scripture “But God demonstrates His love for us by the fact that the Messiah died for us while we were still sinners. Romans 5:8”.